Words

I’d heard those words
Before
Words meant to
Filet someone alive
Lines delivered by an actor
To convey how despicable
And hateful
His character truly is

I gasped
Wrapped my arms around myself
And wept

Because those very same lines
Nearly
Word for word
Had been delivered to me
Before
By those
Who claimed to love me

And I finally saw
So clearly
The vile
Putrid
Hate
That I wanted to
Vomit

He paused the tape and
Rushed
To comfort me
“Don’t,” he whispered, “It’s just a movie.”

I know
But it’s not
It was my life
And
He bears witness

The movie was
A true story
And so is my life

They treated me no better
Than a dirty cop
Who vilified an innocent woman
To cover police corruption

Now I understand
The bigger picture
Why those who called me
Family
Did it to me

Now I understand
Why I
A Gentile
Had to sit shivah
For the living

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One thought on “Words

  1. Amazing. When you feel strong enough and if you are so inclined, please share what happened. The last paragraph was some punch.

    Thank you.

    I am strong. Now. There was a time when the blows left me face down in the dirt, but not anymore. The events happened a few years ago, the movie more recently, but it’s so nice to know – you have no idea how nice – to know that someone is willing to listen should the time ever come for me to tell my story. *hugs*

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